I have fallen for my dads best friend?

I have fallen for this guy. We have been completely honest with each other. He won't hang out with me because he doesn't want to be disloyal to my father. If it was just the two of us then everything would be fine. There is an 17 year age gap. He has recently told me that he will not come further into my life because he would feel that he was constantly doing something wrong. And that he felt inappropriate. I should be mad and resentful towards him at a time such as this. But I started falling in love with him, and he continues to talk to me. Making my feelings feel validated each day. Because he doesn't want us to stop talking. I know that it would cost the friendship between him and my dad. When he told me that he wasn't going to be able to see me, it was like my heart was put in a blender and left on ice crush. I know he feels the same about me, but why would he walk away if I made him happy. If I could put his mind at ease, and am only thing missing in his life. Why suppress the emotion. I just don't get it. I have never had somebody hurt me so bad and still continue to be nice to them, and still want them to come into my life, where we can be free with each other. Perhaps I am a fool. I talked to all of my friends and family, and nobody thought it was a big deal. I am 23 and have a right to my own privacy. And if we make each other happy, why can't we be together? Right now, we both have a perpetual heart ache because we are not in each others arms, and have lost each other. I cannot live like this, and I just want him to come into my life where I can cherish him.

When is it okay to move in with him . .?

So this may sound super crazy ; I am 17 and i am a very determined / independent female - I have big dreams and plan on going to PACE or NYU in the city to pursue my goal of becoming a forensic technician ; I am ambitious but im also the 1st kid going off too college wl parents Pr / colombia ... they have no experience and no financial support to help me nor credit to get good loans otther than PLUS loan . I have some scholarships and am workingg on getting others, im only a junior. But my bf of 10 months who i see my self with for a long time has brought about an idea . hE WILL BE living on his own soon , with a job he got through college he has a 4.0 and full ride in college so he can save up but hes offered for me to live with him and not pay rent which i was shocked at and said i would want to pay rent and get a job cause i dont like feeling like nothing . . . but anyways should i think about this if we last thru my senior yr ? he already lives in the city ... WHY OR WHY NOT <3 AND YES i love him , but i dont want to write too much cause i know most will not read it haa ! --thank you .

Is there something wrong with me?

Maybe you arent outgoing enough. Encourage your guy-friends who you are, and show them that you are interested in them. And no, theres nothing wrong with you.

Did the rest of the world not get our memo?

Deviant homosexual american swine are all castrated cowards! russia will soon strike and it will be swift and total crushing of capitalist pig dogs! glory to mother russia!

I'm scared of getting my first kiss, any advice?

Don't be so desperate it will happen when it will happen. And you don't have to kiss a girl to learn how to do it. It just comes naturally!

Would you rather be saved by Superman or meet Winnie the Pooh?

Wouldn't mind holding on to Superman while flying in the sky. Imagine if he liked me and we made out up in the sky near the moon when the moon hits your eye like a big pizza pie thaaaat's amore LOL

Is it time for me to come to realization that going to a top tier university is not in my future?

You're right, you might not get into those schools but in the end when you look for a job they will only see a degree and won't care where it was from